Goodbye

The thought has been haunting me for ages now
And I finally found the courage to go through with it
I'm sitting on the hard, cold floor
My body is stiff, my eyes glazed with tears
My breath is caught in my throat
My violent heartbeat echoes in the hollow room
Hate, pain, confusion, bitterness and sadness
They run through me, all at once
I scream inside my head and make them go away
I take a deep breath, my mind is made up
I hold the cold metal to my head
And gather all my strength to pull the trigger
A smile spreads across my face as I do
I hit the floor, agonized for a moment
And I finally lay in peace, as I whisper to myself, "Goodbye".

First Kiss

It was a cold January evening. The sun had set, We quietly walked along the dark road, that overlooked the lake. The wind swept through my hair, brushed my face and gave me goosebumps on my arms. He moved in closer and wrapped his hand around mine. Our shoulders bumped into each other as we walked. I looked at our feet, so in sync and then I looked at him and caught him looking at me. We smiled awkwardly. Suddenly, he stopped in his tracks and turned to stand in front of me. The moon, that was previously hidden behind clouds, illuminated his face. He held both my hands in his' as he looked into my eyes. My cheeks turned a bright crimson and a whole pack of butterflies attacked my tummy. I lowered my gaze into nothingness, unable to meet his eye. He held my chin between his fingers and lifted my face up. Combating my shyness, I looked back into his eyes and clasped onto his hands, tighter. He smiled and suddenly, he leaned in and pressing his lips against mine, he kissed me. After a couple of seconds, he pulled back and he was rather amused at the stunned, eye-popping-out expression on my face. It took me a few moments to register what had happened and when it did, I grinned at him and he grinned back. Then we resumed walking, hand in hand, quietly into the darkness of the night. It was the most perfect first kiss ever